Wow, its been a hot minute since I’ve genuinely sat down and written for fun. A lot of stuff has happened recently so blogging has been sent to the back of my brain so I could focus on bettering myself and focusing on school etc. So, let me fill you in on what you’ve missed.
The last blog post i wrote was back in September, i had just started 6th form, a whole load of stuff was changing in my routine and life that just really stressed me out. I went from seeing all my friends all day every day to a couple of hours a week, Callum has gone to college so i only see him a couple of times a week while juggling new schoolwork and free time to spend wisely on course work and essays. I genuinely missed writing though, for the past 5 months i’ve been writing annotations and essays on Literary periods and i thought i had forgotten how to just write! But it’s not just my routine that changed, my interests and plans have changed too. I’ve been getting more interested in art as a career, looking into tattoo artistry or something along those lines once i get back from travelling. I think it’d be a good way to still make art for fun while earning money to live. This doesn’t mean that journalism isn’t an option but im just looking at my avenues of what i CAN do. This, however, is made difficult by my school. My school very much focuses on STEM subjects (science, technology, engineering and maths) and university which, are very much opposite to my personality. We recently had a careers fair which was very much based around STEM and university, having no creative outlets or careers represented. This means i’m having to look into my options alone, slowing down the process but i’ll work it out. School is surprisingly going well now, i had a little blip in motivation and focus meaning my grades suffered slightly but i’ve been able to pull it around and got myself my first A in English Literature which i am insanely proud of. Art and photography are going well too, we are coming to the end of our practice coursework meaning we are planning final pieces and pulling everything together before we start our 60% coursework on something completely new (i’ll make sure to show you guys what i’ve been doing, making a little art post for you). That’s pretty much all that’s happened in school, i’m about 1/3 of the way through my first year and i’m feeling pretty okay about it all so far.
Now my personal life! Physically i’ve changed quite a lot, recently i’ve been experimenting with my appearance, i bleached my fringe blonde for a while, then dyed it grey then now a dark ginger. I’ve also poked some more holes in my face with a septum piercing and more recently my lip piercing. I’m finally working out what i like and feeling more comfortable in my self which is well overdue. I’ll be honest with you, recently i’ve been struggling mentally, i fell into a deep hole which i didn’t know how to get myself out of but with A LOT of patience, i’m finally getting some help outside of school to cope with my lows. It took a lot for me to ask for help but i was overwhelmed by the support i got from my parents and some of my friends and i couldn’t be more grateful. I guess this is life, everyone has their lows and its the people around us who can really help and support you through tough times and not being okay is okay. Hopefully, soon i’ll be getting my dreadlocks installed. I know, slightly random but i’ve always loved dreads since growing up with my aunty having rainbow dreadlocks. I’m having partial dreads meaning i will have loose hair on top to make a softer look. Whenever i tell someone this they struggle to picture it but I am excited to finally get the hair i’ve dreamed of. More exciting news, i’m turning 17 this week! I can learn how to drive and that’s pretty much it… i’ve always seen turning 17 as pretty pointless but i’m excited none the less. I’m looking forward to another year of memories and experiences. The rest of this year looks busy, i’m seeing my American cousins, i’m off to Ireland for a holiday with the Spicers and going into year 13. Let’s just say i’m slightly excited.
As its half term, I have a lot of free time so maybe you’ll be hearing from me again soon. I genuinely missed this so much, its such a nice outlet to just sit down and pour out whatever is in my head, even if no one reads it, it is nice for me to just write.